but i get the strangest feeling

N Tuesday, December 19, 2006

three going four ):

i want to eat chocolates,
but there is none. ):

and i think my stomach problems is coming back again.
its seems to happen every december. haha.

i'm feeling very stress at the moment.
in two weeks, just two weeks.
screwwwwwed. no time. ):

1:46:00 AM

N Monday, December 18, 2006

i need to control

i can't imagine if i were to leave my wallet travelling all the way to tampines ! thank goodness i realised in time and caught hold of, before sixtyfive came. :)

i've tried but no.
i'll keep everything in.

this is not THE place to,
goodbye !

2:13:00 AM

N Sunday, December 17, 2006

we need to learn how to forgive and forget

i woke up feeling swollen. my eyes were heavy and my eyebags were huge. this is damn bad. mingjie even thought i cried. therefore, those eyes. sighh. i'm trying to sleep earlier and earlier. from six to five and to four now. :)

i woke up at 1.10pm when i'm supposed to meet qibing and gerry at 1.30pm so i was err, twenty minutes late. shopped till i start work at six. i swear i swear ! this will be my last time working on a weekend. it gets me all frustrated and its not worth it.

waited for sherry and tng to end work at freaking 11.45pm to have supper at thomson. got home only at two plus.

well oh well. i think my emotions got the better of me. i've not been myself. i get irritated easily and i can't take jokes. i flare up at the slightest thing. :\ and no, i'm not pmsing.

seriously, i don't mean to be LIDAT but it seems like i can't control what i say or to fake that i'm okay and just let things pass. i guess i was just feeling rather frustrated and tired these few days. hope things will get better day by day, so will my mood ! :]

and i'm sorry.

the minds tired.

the heart's weak.

i've grown to become stronger yet not.

i'll make tomorrow a brand new start, i hope ?
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !

3:45:00 AM

N Saturday, December 16, 2006

so hard to get to the light

i sense that it's gonna be an exciting week ahead ! :DD
i can't wait, i can't wait !

today, i had a motherfucking terrible urge to cut my hair short, short.
my uclers like hurting damn alot ):
six hours passed like three hours. BUSY BUSY BUSY. i was like a mad cow ! and i really didn't want to care or give a damn about anything so i decided to not face the customers so much.

gerry, sam and my other fellow 3/3-ians came down to eat ! i was so happy seeing them ! they make work more lively for me. hahaha. they were like damn funny. they ask me to get mingjie to take the photo for them so that i could be in the photo too. hahahaha. IJ days. ):

tiffane came by after work.
you should really deal with your hair ugly face ! :x

other than that,
i love my girlfriend !

2:24:00 AM

N Friday, December 15, 2006

hold on dear life ;

never ever have i had to find

i've had to dig away to find my own piece of mind

i've never ever had my conscience to fight

the way i'm feeling yeah it just don't feel right

4:17:00 AM

but she's so beautiful

such a beautiful disaster

and if i could hold on

through the tears and the laughter

would it be beautiful ?

or just a beautiful disaster

you're right girlfriend. :)
its not my tagboard cannot tag. is you lousy. you're always saying "fuck you" to me. I REALISED THAT LONG AGO. you're not pretty, she's prettier ! please don't tell people about my pretty girl ok ! otherwise i'll wipe my mouth and say fuck. hahahahahahahahahahaha.

2:37:00 AM

N Thursday, December 14, 2006

being so fucked up these few days,
i think i should head back to ecp days.

fresh air, peaceful, clear thoughts. :)

there is also alot of other things i wanna do.
but, im too busy earning money ! crapp.

OH,

HAPPY ONE YEAR and two days !

hahahahahah.

3:55:00 AM

help me to understand

i was so looking forward for wednesday ! like finally i'm not working, i'm not rotting at home. i was gonna go out with deb and sherry !
but erh, apparently everything went haywire towards the end.

i was given a wake up call. and that idiot finally told me the truth that we're meeting at three and not what they have said to be, two-thirty. they lied. they lied because they were afraid i would be late. DAMN EVIL RIGHT.

okay, then when i was getting ready, a loser called me and asked me to accompany her for lunch because she was lonely. hahaha. i rushed down for her okay ! and because of her, i was late to meet sherry. but deb was worse ! she told me not to be later than three-thirty but she came only at three-fortyfive.

shopped around.
they are so retarded but,
i really enjoyed their company. :)

girlfriend ! "we're on the boat meh ? same plight !"
hahahahah. i wonder who said that ?
if ever you need somebody, i'm just right here ! i understand you and you understand me. if you cry, i'll cry with you. we'll go through this together ! thats what girlfriend is for ! love you ! :)

cherine ; dont have to be sorry. i called because i wanted to check if the private miss call was from you but it turned out to be sherry. well, looks like we don't know whats going on in each others life anymore. do take care yes ? i'll see you on the twenty-nine i hope ? :]

work tomorrow ):
i dread friday.
hoping for saturday to come.

this week gonna pass pretty fast and i'll be left with two weeks. i used to look forward for this holiday but not anymore. this holiday sucks the balls out of me.

your words, her actions.

pretty girl, i think we're fated.
and i'd like to know you more. :)

2:49:00 AM

N Tuesday, December 12, 2006

i can't find the reasons to.
and i don't wish to fucking lie to myself.

dear friends, i suggest you watch THIS. <-- click ! :)

2:52:00 AM

N Monday, December 11, 2006

unknown

this is so boring. i spend half the day sleeping. then i wake up for work, come home use the computer, watch L word and then its back to bed again.

shit ! i'm left with only three weeks of holiday ! i wasted my two err, actually three weeks accomplishing nothing ! ):

2:43:00 AM

N Friday, December 08, 2006

if i wrote you a symphony

just to say how much you mean to me

if i told you, you were beautiful

would you date me on the regular

2:55:00 AM

N Sunday, December 03, 2006

hi there !

when you're so free, the whole world seems to neglect you.
when you're not so free, the whole world seems to realise your existence.

11:56:00 PM

N Friday, December 01, 2006

break the silence

today is an angry day !

1. there was no sun.
2. i was called to return to school just to spend seventy minutes travelling to listen to a five minutes explanation and to collect a piece of paper which i can just print it out myself.
3. stupid bus splashed the puddle of water onto me.
4. @#$@&$&$$*#!*

but i guess its just another passing day.

i've managed to spend some silence with books and i managed to buy home a chocolate fudge cake for my mum. yay. :)
and now, i have the sudden urge to go borrow cookery books. hahahah. but still, i would love to go shopping. hahahahah.
oh ! and yes, i would like to borrow vcds and rot the day home. lol !

i'm happy.
happy that i've got back my pair of listening ears. :)

2:35:00 AM